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I drove to the dentist from work today. First off, it was jaw-droppingly beautiful. The clear sky, the mountains, the river, the rocks, the trees. I'm lucky I wasn't in an accident trying to take it all in. As it was, there was a whole lot of talking to myself about how gorgeous it was as well as some weird consonant combination sounds. (Hnghhh! Hhwwhhhh. Ffffffffnn.) Breath-taking. It almost made me forget that I was on the way to see the most feared of the land predators, the dentist.
He was nice though. And the place was fancy. I mean they actually had the lead vest for me to wear for x-rays! La-di-da!
But he said that my recent woes were due to that root canal I got in Barrow right before I left. (See April of 2011) Apparently, they did a great job with the roots, but they nicked the floor and didn't fill it back up right, because now I have bone loss and crazy infection and that's why my mouth is so unhappy. The bone loss is in the worst possible place to prevent itself from being fixed and an implant won't help if there's no bone to implant on and he doesn't want to file down my perfectly good teeth for a bridge, but there are options, it will take months and might not work and cost about $500.
I wish, I wish this had happened in Barrow when I could've paid for it without worry, but it didn't and I can't, and I'm scared it'll hurt and I won't be able to afford it and I'll have to borrow money from family to get it done, and I'm worried that if I don't, my whole head will rot off because that's how infection works in my mind. Gotta boil it out with listerine and redhot pokers. Gonna have to drive around in the autumn to get over it again.
He was nice though. And the place was fancy. I mean they actually had the lead vest for me to wear for x-rays! La-di-da!
But he said that my recent woes were due to that root canal I got in Barrow right before I left. (See April of 2011) Apparently, they did a great job with the roots, but they nicked the floor and didn't fill it back up right, because now I have bone loss and crazy infection and that's why my mouth is so unhappy. The bone loss is in the worst possible place to prevent itself from being fixed and an implant won't help if there's no bone to implant on and he doesn't want to file down my perfectly good teeth for a bridge, but there are options, it will take months and might not work and cost about $500.
I wish, I wish this had happened in Barrow when I could've paid for it without worry, but it didn't and I can't, and I'm scared it'll hurt and I won't be able to afford it and I'll have to borrow money from family to get it done, and I'm worried that if I don't, my whole head will rot off because that's how infection works in my mind. Gotta boil it out with listerine and redhot pokers. Gonna have to drive around in the autumn to get over it again.
