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One of headlights burned out Thursday night, so Friday after work I went down to Napa to get a bulb, using the box I had gotten the time before to get the right one. I've had to change them out a few times in the seven years I've had it. I didn't expect any problem in changing it.

But the new bulb doesn't fit in the light socket. It's got a weird little prong that won't let it click into the housing. Somehow I got the wrong bulb. I didn't worry about it. I would just go in the next morning (this morning) and exchange it. So I do, no fuss, no muss. But then I get home and then I realize that the reason the first one didn't fit was because I was trying to fit it into the wrong socket. There are two of them and I'd been wrestling with the wrong one.

Then, I dropped the cap of the bulb area into the depths of the car. I had to snake my arm into the inner works to reach it and got stuck. Such a stupid way to die, I told myself. I suppose I could gnaw my arm off before I starved to death, but it turned out I only had to lose a little skin to get my arm out again.

So, I had to go back to Napa and admit to being an idiot and ask for the first bulb back. I got them to put it in because I had had enough for one day. They did it in like two minutes without getting stuck at all, but I took some comfort in that it took two of them.
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I'm behind. But hopefully I can catch up this weekend.


Day 22 )
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Busy, busy, busy.

Day 18 )
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Still behind but I'm getting there.

Day 17 )
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So much written and so little actually typed! I'm catching up though.


Day 15 )
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Day 11 )
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I don't even remember what day of nanowrimo it is. I'm gonna say 10th because it is the 10th. I haven't been able to do much because of a family development that is going to cause a pretty big upheaval. So I'm trying to deal with that and get 2K words in and I have not been able to the last few days. So grahhh!

Day 10 )

and Day 7

Nov. 8th, 2019 08:35 pm
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The cut code doesn't seem to be working even though it is cut and pasted from all the others. Hmm. Anyway.



<cut text="Day 7”> Vince Twoknives was tall and wide and solid from shoulders to knees. Like his grandfather, his auntie told him. Vince had been named for his grandfather but had never seen a picture of him to compare himself to. “Just like him,” his auntie insisted. “Like he was born again.” She had said the same thing as long as Vince could remember. “How did he die?” Vince had asked once when he was a chubby little kid. His aunt had looked startled. “Who said he was dead?” she asked. “I’m not sure the old man CAN die.” “Where did he go then?” Vince had asked. He knew his mother was auntie’s little sister, the youngest daughter of the senior Vincent. He knew that she had married Matthew Twoknives against the his wishes. He knew he had been named Vincent to appease the old man. He had heard of how it hadn’t been enough to keep Old Vincent from killing Matthew when he found him drunk one night. “I’m not sure of that either,” she said, fumbling for a cigarette so she wouldn’t have to look at him. He had been smart enough to realize that she either really didn’t know and that worried her, or she did know and was afraid of what would happen if she said. Grandpa Vincent had made himself scarce after the death of his son-in-law. All pictures of him had disappeared as well. Growing up a fan of the old Star Wars movies, Vince had amused himself as a kid imagining his Grandpa like Obi-Wan Kenobi wandering the wastes. If was nice to think that if he ever had to go out there and was in trouble, his Grandpa Vincent would appear to help him. No one ever talked about his mother. He didn’t know where she had gone or why. He wondered if she was dead too, and no one wanted to say it. He was thirty-two now. He had see much better and much worse movies and come to realize that there wasn’t any mystery or romance to it. There wasn’t a statute of limitations on murder and if his grandpa didn’t want to go to jail, he had to stay very much elsewhere. He had given up hope of ever meeting him. Wherever his mother was, he no longer expected an explanation of that either. One of his classmates had a runaway dad, and they hadn’t know where he was until he had died in a car wreck in Spokane and his next of kin had been notified. Vince thought maybe that would be what happened with his mom someday. Something would happen and they would have to let him know. It hadn’t happened yet. Auntie was in her seventies. They were both still living on the reservation. He had a job carrying things in a delivery warehouse an hour from home and was largely neutral towards it. Carrying things was easy and he didn’t have to talk to anybody. He headed home afterwards and ate whatever was hot at the Calico Kitchen on the way. It was one night, two thirds of the way through a bowl of stew and some fry bread that it occurred to him that he didn’t want to do this anymore. He didn’t really have anyone to talk about it with. It was a Friday and that meant Bingo Night and that meant he wouldn’t hear from Auntie until noon the next day. By then, he had processed it on his own. There was a big shipment in at work on Monday, and the employees worked in teams to unload it and get it in the right parts of inventory. Vince couldn’t think of the name of the guy he was working with, but he was friendly. He filled up the silence with all kinds of conversations. They started out one-sided, but he was able to coax some response out of Vince after awhile. Maybe he was just that good at drawing people out, or maybe Vince was just ready to talk about it with someone. Either way, he ended up telling the guy all about the growing compulsion to be somewhere else. “Like a goose call, I guess,” he said, suddenly remembering to be self-conscious but still too stubborn to back down now. “Whatever tells them it’s time to fly home?” “Back east?” the guy said. He hefted a box easily and walked over to the palette. “Everybody is from the east originally.” “I’m not,” Vince said. The guy set down his load and looked him over with a thoughtful squint. “South, then?” he guessed. “You think I’m Hispanic,” Vince said. It wasn’t the first time. He had also been mistaken for Korean, Filipino, Hawaiian, Vietnamese, Samoan, and Chinese. “I’m a Southerner myself,” the guy said, grinning like it was an inside joke. Maybe it was a euphemism that Vince didn’t know about. “Don’t sound like it,” was all he said. “Nobody really says fiddle-dee-dee, you asshole,” the guy said good-naturedly. “And if you go deep enough, you bypass Southern entirely. Look at Florida.” “I’d rather not,” Vince said. He had never been, but the couple that wintered there and worked here in the summer while they did motorcycle trips across the country complained about it the whole time they were here. Even though, they always went back. “Hah!” the guy said the word instead of just laughing. A minute later, he was called to another truck and Vince was ridiculously glad to be rid of him once he was gone. He hadn’t noticed it when he was there, but once the guy was out of reach, some kind of dread lingered. It made him think of the Skinwalker stories the big kids would tell him before a grown up heard and came to hush them. It was probably irreverent to compare the two, but the same unclean unease was there. He wondered if there was some ritual he could do, some way to cleanse himself of the stranger’s passing. Maybe he could just leave. He already wanted to go. This was as good an excuse as any. But how? And where did he think he was going? Home? This was home, the only one he had ever known. Maybe there was somewhere else, though, some part of his mind thought. Somewhere I actually would want to be. Maybe even want to belong to. I could set up Auntie in my place, sell hers, and use the money to get his truck up for the trip. Trip to where? he asked himself again, but something inside him already knew the answer. Wherever it was that the geese went. He could tell that to Auntie. She would probably want him to get the tribal elder’s blessing. They didn’t mean anything to him, but it would make her happy. She’d like living in his place. It was all one level and the bathroom was right next to the bedroom. No stairs. It would also keep him from coming back. He couldn’t let Auntie get comfortable and then show back up and expect her to leave. Whatever happened, he would have no choice but to start over somewhere else. New job, new place to live, whatever it was, it wouldn’t be this. </cut>
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I was up on the mountain last night and didn’t get any writing finished, so I had to try and make up for it tonight.

<cut text="Day 6”> Maggie tried reading the Bible to repel Russell, but it didn’t work. He knew it word for word, in different languages. It wouldn’t have been too unnerving if all he knew was Italian or maybe Latin since the Mazzas were first generation out of Italy. It might not’ve been terrifying if all he knew was Yiddish or Hebrew. Plenty of people were Jewish. Russell knew them all, though. He spoke perfect German to Al, Welsh to the Lloyds, and would hop back and forth with any other language you asked for. He could be just a very good faker, Kahl thought. It wasn’t like he or Maggie knew any of those languages except the bits and pieces that got picked up in a coal town. Russell could just be able to pretend well enough to fool anyone. Except Al and Lloyd were convinced. Maggie had been raised to believe that every word in the Bible was true or none of it was. To have this unwashed kid tell her things the Bible didn’t say with the confidence of someone who had been there was upsetting to her. Russell told her about the Book of Enoch and showed her the passages in Jude and Ezekiel that tied into it. Kahl didn’t understand it, and neither did the blackbirds or their wives. It infuriated and frightened Maggie enough that she took her Bible and went to talk to the pastor in the little church at the beginning of town. If Kahl would’ve had his way, he would’ve avoided Russell as carefully as he avoided going back down into the mines. The kid popped up all over the place though. He had to remind himself that it wasn’t really a dark-eyed, handsome young man but something more sinister, if Maggie was right. And she probably was. She had been raised with religion and knew more about it than her husband. Hopefully the pastor would tell her something that would comfort her and she would come and tell him, and they could both feel better about this mess. “This was bad enough before you showed up,” Kahl said. He didn’t even have to look to know Russ was there. He wondered what the Mazzas thought of their son surviving a deadly accident and then running off to hang out with strangers at all hours of the day and night. Did they know something was wrong or did they explain it away as a brush with death changing their son? As it was, he didn’t like to talk to the thing in a kid’s skin. He didn’t believe it when it said its name was Russell and he didn’t really want to encourage it by talking to it. But the truth of it was, that it was so much scarier to treat it like a demon than it was to treat it like a weird and unwelcome human. Maybe that was one of its deceptions; talk to it like a person, treat it like a person and maybe you’d start to think of it as one and forget what it really was. “It isn’t my fault that the local girls were so pretty,” Russell said. Kahl didn’t want to hear the explanation for that, so he didn’t ask. Russ grinned, probably reading his mind. He was still dirty and rumpled. Kahl wasn’t sure if he had changed clothes since he had appeared in their house that night. He didn’t stink the way a filthy teenager should. Kahl didn’t think he had ever seen him eat or drink. How long would the Mazza boy’s body last if Russ didn’t take care of it? That was a much safer question, so he did ask that one. Russell looked down at his arms and hands as if he wasn’t sure of the answer either. “The boy was dead,” he said. He said it like he was explaining it to a simpleton. “Dead boys don’t need food or water.” “You don’t smell dead,” Kahl said. It had been days. The body should’ve begun to decay by now. “I’m not,” Russ said. He only explained when was interested in the subject. He would make you ask a series of questions to get answers if he wasn’t. If he had been in one of Kahl’s teams, he would’ve been swatted a long time ago. Junie was keeping an eye on the two of them from a nearby porch. She was shelling peas for soup to take up to the sinkhole camp tomorrow, but her ears were wide open and she didn’t miss much. “What’s wrong with the Hudd brothers?” he asked instead. It might be better to keep the kid talking. “They like it,” Russ said. Sure enough, he didn’t mind changing the subject. “They like being filled up with it. They don’t have to think or worry or wonder. They just have to serve. Maybe that’s what it’s like to be an angel. Filled to the brim with otherworldly fire and not even the capacity to doubt or fear that whatever you happen to do is the will of the Almighty.” “Demons were angels once, weren’t they?” It wasn’t really a question. Kahl had only skimmed the Bible during church and read the passages that were expected of him at Christmas and Easter, but he knew the color plates in Maggie’s old family Bible well. The one of the fall of Lucifer was especially vivid. There were a lot of details in the wings burning. Russell, damn him, had the nerve to shrug. “What were any of us that long ago?” he said. “You pick now to play dumb?” “I only play when it’s a game,” Russell said. “Russell,” Junie said suddenly. Russell’s head whipped around like a startled deer’s. If anything, he looked surprised and delighted to be spoken to by someone new. Hopefully it was Kahl’s imagination that his neck made a soft creak like tough meat being stretched. “Make yourself useful,” Junie went on. “Run tell Myra Keller to give you some fatback for the soup and bring it back here for me.” “For you?” Russell said. “Of course.” He grinned at Kahl as if they were in competition for her and he had just scored a point. He went on his jaunty way and once he had passed what would be earshot for a normal human, Junie fixed one of her steely looks on Kahl. “Don’t encourage him,” she said. “You aren’t seeing how he eats up your attention. He’s like a cat watching a bird, waiting for you to talk to him or look at him. Whatever he wants, he wants it bad, and he thinks he can get it from you.” “I don’t know what to do,” Kahl admitted. “And I’m so tired of not knowing what to do that I’m willing to take help wherever it comes, I guess.” “Is he helping though? Or making it worse?” “You heard what he said about the Hudds. What if it’s true?” “What if it’s not and he just telling you enough to get you to the wrong answer?” “What if he’s deaf?” Russell asked cheerfully. He was standing in the doorway behind Junie on the porch, strips of fatback wrapped in paper held out to her. Kahl thanked all the angels in Heaven that Myra hadn’t let him carry it his grimy hands. There was nearly a whole coal mine under his fingernails alone. “Put it there,” Junie said, sharp as a knife. She refused to be startled or embarrassed, which Kahl was ashamedly grateful for, because it drew Russell’s attention away from him. “That’s two favors I’ve done for you,” Russell said to her. “That’s two favors you owe me.” “You don’t scare me,” Junie said, and if she was lying, Kahl couldn’t tell. “Good,” Russell said. He seemed as sincere as she did. “Frightened people are useless.” </cut>
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Still lurking about! I couldn't resist the name.


Day 5 )
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Reread what I've written so far and decided to add this. Wee bit smutty and not too important to the plot, but oh well.

Day 4 )
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Jumping around a bit here. More of these guys need names.

Day 3 )
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The trouble with nanowrimo is I don't really have it all in linear form. I have scattered notes and a list of names. I'm basically just stream of consciousness typing it out. When I hit a block I hop to another part.

Day 2 )
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If anyone is interested at all, this was my first day's writing:

Day 1 )
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"The darkness in them wasn't their soul. It was just the empty place where a soul should've been."
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The clearest part of last night’s dream was someone (possibly Okoye) saying:

“I spoke in anger and I apologize.” The witch (maybe) replied:

“I answered out of spite. We’re even.”
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Here’s a rambling little story.

Many moons ago, when I was a wee sprig of a girl in the 2nd grade, there was some kind of state-wide writing contest. I don’t remember what I wrote, but it won for my grade level. I got to go with the other winners to the state capitol for some kind of writer’s panel that was going on.

The only thing I cared about was that Maurice Sendak was there. He read one of his stories and talked during the panel. As a seven-year old, I didn’t care beans about the adults’ questions and all the debate with the other authors about writing things. I only cared about the story. So, while they all talked about the technical parts, I drew a picture of Mr. Sendak sitting there, holding the paper in front of him, with one of his own Wild Things creeping up behind him.

My teacher insisted I show it to him, and led bashful little me up to the table after the speakers were finished. I gave him the drawing and Mr. Sendak was very gracious. He drew a Wild Thing of my own for me and gave me a signed copy of Where the Wild Things Are. I was over the moon for the rest of the day and the only other thing I remember was that an older lady came up at a different panel and read a poem. All I remember from that was that I liked it, and the repeated line “I flapped and I flewed.”

Now, decades later, I have come across this. It’s a little different, but I think it must be the same poem. I don’t know if the improper grammar I remember is something I misheard, or just an affectation of the reader, but I think it’s the poem from all those years ago! I can't help but be ridiculously happy over that.
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I have been weirdly productive this weekend and the only explanation is that there is so much more serious things for me to be doing!

Serious things.

Important things.

Things I will get in trouble for NOT doing.

Have I done those things? Oh, no. But I have done many, many other things! Things that I have put off for ages because they weren’t as important as the other things.

The good news is that now I have no choice but to do the important things.






Yay.
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How can it be only Tuesday?

My desk is in shambles and under three layers of clutter.

My car is a mess best described as unholy.

I am exhausted.

And it’s only Tuesday. If it was Thursday, I could say it had been a rough week.

But it’s only Tuesday.

And how is my car almost out of gas already? It’s only Tuesday!!

Nerd Dream

Oct. 11th, 2018 05:45 pm
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Ok, so in the dream, a person that I think might have been my Overwatch OC Marlowe was all bent out of shape because in one of the Avenger battles, Iron Man had accidentally crushed two of her brothers under a thrown building or something. Maybe it was the A off the Stark Industries tower that was knocked loose in some epic battle, but whatever it was that killed them, she was. Most. Put. Out.

So much so that she confronted him over this in his own command center. Thor was no help since all he could talk about was weregild and what not, and apologies just don't cut it when your big and baby brother had to be removed from the sidewalk with a hose.

So she decides the big lug in the cape is right and that only blood will pay for blood. Tony informs her that he is an only child, so that's not going to work either.

"Only legitimate child," she hisses back. "Luckily, ol' Howard spread his bastards far and wide enough that it shouldn't be too much trouble to find them." And she hacks all his screens so that it tracks down the files of all these random men who maybe do look a lot like Tony and/or Howard.

"Two half brothers should equal one full brother," she says. "So four of these are going to die with your name cut into their bellies."

Poor Tony tries to argue, but she says something like. "You ever think that the reason he didn't care that much for you was because by the time you were born the novelty of being a dad had worn off?"

And there was more after that, something about the ghost of an exiled Wakandan kept in a jar until it could be delivered to the spirit realm to scream at the king who had banished her, and someone singing The Parting Glass over the death of an animal and Bucky joining in because he remembers this song, but it's all blurry after that.

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